Flying In The Wind

I were a leaf that is carried by the wind.

I turn around to follow, as if a rope connecting my body with him. Since i followed that "wind" , I was not cautious. Sometimes I fall to the ground bacause of its moving. When i ve been fell, it is moist and difficult to re-fly. Also sometimes I drift into a big tree. Yea, it hurts, like hell. But i ll be fascinated by its beauty and i would still be pleased to fall and get hit. What so ever the risk, the pain, i love to beeing fly in the "wind". I am not blind, I see, I feel how the "wind" gives me that pain and tears. But i just let myself close my eyes, follow the wind.

Is it false ? according to some people, they ll say " No, it is not false. "
Because when the "wind" is coming, it can not be denied. The "wind" would just moving, then we just take off, if we let it, maybe we'll get to a comfortable prairie, feel happy and comfy there. But when the "wind" was barren, this "wind" could also bring us into the desert without water, and difficult to return.
If from a distance you've felt that the "wind" barren or you suddenly see the parched, just leave the "wind", although you have to be waiting for another "wind" to come. Stop at the place where it is comfy enough to beeing a shelter. Better you leave that "wind" before the desert eliminates your chance to return into fresh praire. Believe me, there is so many, many "wind" that you may choose then, that will make you fly with, into a praire.

Dont be afraid, honey :) when you need to take a shelter, use your time wisely to beautify you texture or playing with the other leaves. If you have been flying in the "wind" , you would miss that act.

graduation day

its a brand new day
without bad dreams
no more daily pain
without fake smiles
no more weekly sadness

day without you in my mind

i have been successful to get you away, i ve pass this exam, even maybe get C for the mark.
the most important, i ve graduated.
this is my graduation day. cheers !

Happy new year :D

Hey Guys, this is the 1st post in 2010 ( for the one who followed the Babit's Party must know how deep the meaning of this sentence :p )

This night began with a card game which made me and babit should squat for losing games, all lazy to lose, but we all laughed as long as we could.

Tonight is filled with roasted corn, meat, tempe, and tahu. All tired, but all enjoyed, and felt good.

This night ended with fireworks ( not fireflies indeed, i just knew it yesterday. Thanks for bantya because she allowed me to call the firework as a fireflies, because " fireflies" sounds better in my ears ) that look more beautiful than babit's neighbour's, all exposed of smoke, but all fine and happy.

All of the beautiful there always have consequences, all of thing which should be paid is always beautiful, tthose beautiful things can not just acquired, or it would occure an ordinary sense.

Last year was filled with final exam stress, falling down - roll out because of love, shock due to the change of learning, the end of semester's task, but all covered by you all, Guys.It beautifully closed by something that is also beautiful. Thanks.

Just Fine

sunny day
the sun can not hide
wind dance without thinking long
leaves with a cheerful greeting, and then fell to the ground
loose soil, taking them gently

a day like this
doesnt not deserve to cry about
a bright day like this
doesnt not deserve to be reproached
a peaceful day like this
doesnt deserve to be insulted by continually asking for more without effort

we already have eyes, even could not see the shape of the wind
we still have ears, though unable to hear the sound of leaves falling gently
we still have nose to breathe, though it can not smell the hot sun

everything just, just fine.

Secret Plan

God always keep everything, including life and death. Happy and sad. Trials and blessings. That's all that we continue to pray, try and grateful.
My aunt died today, the memory of her hospitality is still recorded in my mind. She suffered the same disease with my father, and my uncles who had preceded. Last I saw, she was so healthy with gloves and socks. She talked about the organization she led. Later she was frequently called my father, telling how healthy she is. And how healthy her husband who had just recovered from disability. I were happy because of that. I rarely communicate with her because I stutter in Java language, but I really love her as family. I remember how she tried to speak the Indonesian language which she did not mastered, only to say hello. How grateful I am to have her in my side.
Why did God take her so fast? why God did not tell me that she would gone today ? why did God show us that he was going to live any longer?

Because God wanted us to always be aware of what we have. Be grateful, until one day come - come pick them up. Because God wanted to keep it quiet, so we all can laugh till the bad news arrived. Because God wants us to pray at any time, for the happiness that can be lost at any time. Because God wants us to see our image in the glasssee, that we are only human.

Live and be happy, before one or both taken :) do not make God teach you a happiness through a grief.

Treehouse

I saw him, standing there so long. I was confused when i saw he's just walking around below the same tree. He never moved from there. I wonder why he didn't try to sit if he waiting for someone. he just paced back and forth, and continued his confusion. And I was as stupid, cant stop worrying abut him.

Then the rain came, I went into my tree house. I peeked out a moment, he was more confused.
I wanted to offer my house, but I'm afraid he refused it, so I said nothing. Suddenly he knocked on my door, I saw he was shivering, cold. I invited him in, gave him a blanket and a cup of hot tea. For the first time, I heard his voice, he said "thank you" :) *yey !

Then, he told me that he was waiting for someone. *huh
I saw him drowning in the wound, and I tried to change the subject. I was looking for stupid jokes, so he can laugh. I did not care whether I look stupid in his eyes. The most important thing was he laughed, I enjoyed watching his laughing. We talked at length, laughed, and he forgot someone who he was he waiting for. I'm glad, glad to see it.

Soon after, the rain stopped.
He looked out, then put the cup. Then he said "Thank you for discussion and a place for shady".
I wanted to say "If u want to wait here is just okay, until your lover come."
But he was already gone, he did not let me issue a word. Besides that, he would be reluctant to wait a long time with me. He returned to waiting under the tree, spinning, cold and felt hot outside.
Increasingly saw the blackened, I became increasingly unwell. I decided to go to him,
then I said, "Put my tree house to wait. I have to move to another place. " I was lying.
Then his face shone brightly, he said " Thanks " for the second time and he got in to my treehouse. Once again, I'm glad. Although it makes me have to hide in another tree, and saw him occasionally, " whether he had met with his lover or not ? Is he ok ? " an another stupid questions.

I feel hot, i'm wet in the rain now. If he see me, would he offer me a place to take shelter ?

Love will make you willing to sacrifice. But you must know, you are also equally valuable. If the person you love can not respect you, you have to respect your self, because you are deserved to be loved. :)

When Coffee Meets The Milk

Coffee tastes bitter to the tongue
Milk is sweet on the tongue

Coffee's colour is obviously black
Milk's colour is pure white

Different ? yeah.

But why did they not rebel when mixed?
even more provide a more enjoyable taste of coffee with milk

Does coffee have to change the color used to be white only to be mixed with milk?
Whether the milk should be changed once a sweet taste to be mixed with coffee?

Think about it,
This world would be destroyed if forced to be equal

There white is to brighten the dark
Sweet taste is to diminish the bitter
So that the world is not only black and white

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Differences are not need to blame, you are who questioned those differences, who need to open your eyes and look,
Does your mother have the same sex with your father ?